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I can’t sit still!!

August 13, 2009

I am going back to blogger as more are on there and I can follow easier and do it directly from google stuff….


Time passes….

August 6, 2009

This week for some reason I have been doing some “deeper” thinking ok it may have been the few brown ale’s I have had at night.  Those brown ale’s cause me to get all sentimental, sensible and get me thinking – now is that an upside?

Oh I am not sure but I have been thinking how 5 years, 10 years, and 15 years can sure change your perspective on life.  Where was I at those times? What do I remember as important parts?

15 years ago (August 1994)

  1. Wow about 1 year out of high school – worries? Really? No
  2. I am pretty sure I was living in Wisconsin at this point working in a <cough> gentleman’s club as a waitress and then as a DJ (seriously I loved the DJ part) don’t judge me it was a kick ass job with great money at age 18/19.
  3. I drove a Dodge Daytona T-Tops – White – no problems except changing a few tires in the snow – I can do it!
  4. College – no way.  I lived my days riding horses and shopping and worked at night why would I change my life?
  5. As far as I knew my family was all healthy

10 years ago ( August 1999)

  1. I got married in 1999 (at least to the best of my recollection) he was a fabulous friend and I knew it wasn’t right but I was young and dumb.  Thank god we are still friends today
  2. I finally was in college!  In “99” I graduated with my AA and continued to Richard Stockton to get my BA
  3. I was working in a restaurant in Shrewsbury, New Jersey and living on the Jersey Shore (Ocean Twp)
  4. I believe this is the first year the family went to the Outer Banks for my Aunt’s wedding – all family was healthy as far as I knew

5 years ago (August  2004)

  1. Been living in Texas since Jan 02
  2. Living with old high school boyfriend from Minnesota – yep many years later
  3. Quit restaurant and now in the conference call biz for over a year
  4. My Grandfather passed away from a heart attack before I moved to ATX- Thanksgiving 01
  5. I thought I had my life planned and this was where it is suppose to be- I was on “track”, track to what who the hell knows

Present (August 2009)

  1. Never thought I would get a phone call from my sister crying from watching Montel Williams being on Oprah – he was talking about his fears of MS, My sister has been diagnosed with MS.
  2. For once I don’t have a full life plan, I know what I want but I don’t have it mapped out as that never gets me anywhere
  3. I was lucky and got a great roommate who was a stranger and now is a friend and one of the most trusted persons I know!
  4. Met one of the most fantastic men of my life, I am being treated like an angel
  5. Never thought I would fall for a man who lives across the pond or meet him in Vegas!
  6. Going on my first trip to the UK in 30 something days to visit said above fantastic man
  7. Never thought I would feel this old at almost 34?

Of course so much more has gone on in my life but if only I was smart enough to blog back in the day I could recall more points quicker but I was a pager geek 15 years ago.  10 years ago I got my first cell and learned about the computer from my ex-husband the programmer but never in my wildest dreams would I think I would be as excited for geeky gadgets as I am such as GOOGLE VOICE!  I am loving this and I will figure out all the cool things shortly and share if I can find a way to make it do things ya didn’t think it could.

Well it’s my Friday and I am ready for the weekend! Why? Duhh that puts me one weekend closer to heading over to see Mister Sensible (5 more weekends including this weekend)

Cocktails and butterflies to ya’ll


Calm Chaos

July 30, 2009

Life can be so calm but yet can be so chaotic, is it a cruel joke or maybe life is this way to keep us on our toes!

I am not complaining since I am quite happy at this point in my life – I didn’t say perfect but happy!

I would like to think I am a pretty positive person and I like to plan and see my future and not leave everything to chance and I have “met” some incredible women whose life stories have just made me smile!  I love happy endings and seeing positive outcomes that leave you with a gitty feeling – I mean who doesn’t?

I guess you figured out I read a lot of blogs <nodnod> I love them! I also belong to a fantastic forum where people “get” you, the LDR and life.  Ok it’s not all women but such great information and positive vibes all it can do is keep you positive and smile and rejoice when good things happen.

Speaking of positive things here are a few things that have made me smile recently from friends online(no it is not all encompassing)

1. Making new friends on Facebook!

2. Friend granted her British Citizenship and getting her in touch with my Aunt to maybe board her horse

3. Another friend moving to be with her husband finally!

4.  Suggestions from people on the forum on what to do when in York

5. Great stories and comments on my blog – more people who “get it” and aren’t afraid to say it 😉

6. Hearing fabulous stories of how “they” met

I am a romantic and LOVE all the romantic stories – It should be a book and it should be called, “Life: Who would have thunk it..The stories of how you met”

Thanks for making me smile on a daily basis.

Cocktails and butterflies to ya’ll


Don’t make someone a priority if you are just an option…

July 27, 2009

I absolutely love this saying that I cannot find an author to give credit.  It rings true everyday of my life.

Whether  they are friends, family or a special someone they really can’t be that special if you are just an option in their life.

I am not a religious person but I feel quite honored that I have such fabulous friends in my life and a wonderful man – I can find no fault and I am not waiting for the other shoe to drop.  Life may be the longest thing you ever do but in the same breathe life is short so make sure you tell people how you feel or you may not have the chance.

Ok I am quite mushy today and this weekend I was slightly emotional as well – like a train wreck!  I watched Mama Mia and cried! Really?  Who cries over a musical with ABBA music? Me that’s who….At least I found out I am not the only one <wiping sweat from my brow>

Even songs in commercials ok well the song like this one <mushy sigh> Yep way to go AT&T, gosh I didn’t know how romantic, mushy, emotional I could be until recently.  It’s a great feeling.

Yeah I cry at tons of movies most recently:  The Holiday, PS I love you, My Sisters Keeper, Mama Mia and August Rush <shrug> I am human 😉

Anyone else get all teared up from a movie? commercial? TV show?

Well embrace a good cry as it is an outlet and it shows your human just like me…Then have a nice glass of wine.

cocktails and butterflies to ya’ll

52 things you would love to say out loud at work

July 22, 2009

Ok well at my work anyway – As JZ says, ” Sarcasm..just one more service we offer”

I did love these and wanted to share!

1. I can see your point, but I still think you’re full of sh*t.
2. I don’t know what your problem is, but I’ll bet it’s hard to pronounce.
3. How about never? Is never good for you?
4. I see you’ve set aside this special time to humiliate yourself in public.
5. I’m really easy to get along with once you people learn to see it my way.
6. Who lit the fuse on your tampon?
7. I’m out of my mind, but feel free to leave a message.
8. I don’t work here. I’m a consultant.
9. It sounds like English, but I can’t understand a word you’re saying.
10. Ahhhh. I see the f ***-up fairy has visited us again.
11. I like you. You remind me of myself when I was young and stupid.
12. You are validating my inherent mistrust of strangers.
13. I have plenty of talent and vision; I just don’t give a sh*t.
14. I’m already visualizing the duct tape over your mouth.
15. I will always cherish the initial misconceptions I had about you.
16. Thank you. We’re all refreshed and challenged by your unique point of view.
17. The fact that no one understands you doesn’t mean you’re an artist.
18. Any resemblance between your reality and mine are purely coincidental.
19. What am I? Flypaper for freaks?!
20. I’m not being rude. You’re just insignificant.
21. It’s a thankless job, but I’ve got a lot of Karma to burn off.
22. Yes, I am an agent of Satan, but my duties are largely ceremonial.
23. And your cry-baby whiny-arsed opinion would be?
24. Do I look like a f****** people person to you?
25. This isn’t an office. It’s Hell with fluorescent lighting.
26. I started out with nothing and I still have most of it left.
27. Sarcasm is just one more service we offer.
28. If I throw a stick, will you leave?  <—My Favorite
29. Errors have been made. Others will be blamed.
30. Whatever kind of look you were aiming for, you missed.
31. Oh I get it. Like humour, but different………
32. An office is just a mental institute without the padded walls.
33. Can I swap this job for what’s behind door ………1?
34. Too many freaks, not enough circuses.
35. Nice perfume (or aftershave). Must you marinate in it?
36. Chaos, panic, and disorder. My work here is done.
37. How do I set a laser printer to stun?
38. I thought I wanted a career; it turns out I just needed the money.
39. I’ll try being nicer if you’ll try being more intelligent.
40. Wait a minute – I’m trying to imagine you with a personality.
41. Aren’t you a black hole of need.
42. I’d like to help you out, which way did you come in?
43. Did you eat an extra bowl of stupid this morning?
44. Why don’t you slip into something more comfortable? Like a coma.
45. If you have something to say raise your hand………then place it over your mouth.
46. I’m too busy, can I ignore you some other time?
47. Don’t let your mind wander, its too small to be let out on its own.
48. Have a nice day, somewhere else.
49. You’re not yourself today, I noticed the improvement straight away.
50. You are as pretty as a picture, I’d really like to hang you.
51. Don’t believe everything you think.
52. Do you hear that? That’s the sound of no-one caring.

Distance stinks…

July 20, 2009

As you may or may not know I am in a LDR – yep long distance relationship.  Across the pond as they say which is quite a long way and honestly this stinks!

Love the man hate the distance! I just needed a quick vent and what better place then the friendly blog where every stranger known to man can come across it and say,  “huh I am not alone” or someone (brave) can tell me to suck it up (please don’t do that I won’t stay a nice person).

I have had a sore throat since Wednesday and yesterday I felt horrible when I woke up and got on-line at like 11am all I wanted was to talk to BF and like magic he appeared on-line – he is psychic.  I felt a little better speaking with him and then of course we got to speak around 4ish for about 90 min and then to make me feel even better he was on skype at 8 which is 2 am for him just so we could see each other before going to bed – I smiled and crashed out when we “hung” up around 230am.  The distance still stinks – We can’t pop over when we want for 3 days and the time difference is actually not to bad just 6 hours but somehow it works.  Except for when I get home from going out and I want to say good night its like 4am there so instead he gets emails from me saying good night.

I have done LDR’s before – like in another state not another country but HEY when something works why question it.  We are happy yet miserable as he has been told but not in the miserable life sucks way but the miserable because you would rather be somewhere else – AMEN to that.  Love happens and who am I to say nope I can’t date you for XYZ reasons.  At least we know we will see each other fairly soon – September.  Gosh it seems so damn far away but really its just around the corner.  I get to be there for his birthday – yeah I am the best birthday present ever <nodnod>

So what else do you do to get thru the distance and not having them right there?  Chatting, Email and Skype is my new best friend ohh and the girls on the forum are great too!  Nope I won’t tell you where as that is my secret place 😉 Let’s hope September comes QUICK!

Cocktails and Butterflies to you all!

It finally happened ;-)

July 14, 2009

It happened….Yep Mr. Sensible was here for a whole 12 days and it flew by and what a fantastic time.  I am booking my ticket to the UK this week, yes it went that well.  Of course I had some butterflies on seeing him in person again after our 4 day whirlwind in Vegas in April – I mean who wouldn’t?  When something just is what it is and it felt right there was no weirdness.

After the stressful day of delayed flights and still making it here to Austin it was just like it should be as we saw each other.  Kissing, hugging and normalcy – Such a fabulous reality check!  I should never doubt myself but some people thought I was crazy – ok I am slightly but only for this man <nodnod> it happened. Once again I should know better than to let anyone put thoughts in my head but I understand it

Now life as I know it has been turned upside down, the reality check has happened and I am too excited to see him again in 60 days…Yep we get a new countdown and it can’t come soon enough!  Now if only I could stay there longer but who would pay my bills? If someone wants to pay the mortgage and bills I will stay longer hee hee….somehow I don’t see this happening.

So for those who were waiting for the outcome all I can say is it was fantastic and he is one of the most wonderful men I have ever met – ever!



cocktails and butterflies to ya’ll